light

i've never caught a lightening bug. i think i'm scared it's going to pee on my hand and my palm will glow for months and everybody will know that i was selfish enough to want a light in my hand. but is that so bad? even if it's just for a short while? to want a little magic so close to my skin? i could keep some distance. use a jar that i'll forget to poke air holes in. suffocation has never been a card that i consciously play. so to be safe, i just want him in my hand. just a few flashes of light and i'll be ok. i promise. i'll count the silent pops as my hand shakes, feel the moment, make a memory, and let it go. the little bug will probably think i want to keep it, but i really don't. i just want a piece of his quiet. in the gray and silver silhouette of the trees under the moon with a light in my hand. and when he's gone he will feel nothing but relief. i, on the other hand, will feel like maybe i had...like maybe i...well...i dunno. cause i've never caught a lightening bug.